Limerence

I had a limerent crush on a performance artist I met at an online party during the Covid times. We sold tickets to our first meeting in a London park, then later went to a kinky club where I felt out of my depth with a stranger. Committing to staying a few days at his house was a mistake; the crush wasn’t mutual. I left early. And ended up kissing a girlfriend on her more welcoming sofa instead. Limerent crushes are awful when unrequited. I felt needy, and sick with unusual feelings of rejection. Which was disappointing after the initial mutual admiration and seeming connection.