Enquiry

Unlike some of my friends for whom every feeling is a depth probe, I’m too busy to give emotions much attention.. Often I have to be asked a question to sense into what I feel. Despite years of somatic work, while I’m better at noticing sensations in the body, feeling emotions has been a piecing together. I think my feelings. In the Non Violent Communication lists, I found names for the different degrees of doubt, anger, pain, disquiet, consternation, unsureness, and dismay. Giving names to feelings, and then trying to figure out if or where I feel them, is an undertaking. It usually comes back to my heart, a place I’m less familiar with. Finding fractures of sensitivity, with a vulnerability I don’t have the inner permission to speak.